Running Straight For The Unknown?

So, I have this question running in my head now, and that is, am I running straight for the unknown? Let me give you examples of what I'm talking about here. First off, I'm going to school for a major in youth ministry and a minor in worship and music. Do I have any idea what I'm going to do with those? Absolutely not. My first semester of college was mediocre for the work. I scored lower than the required gpa more than likely, but still have heard nothing from the school, so I plan on returning. What are they expecting of me? I know not. I'm writing music once again in hopes of finding answers.... but do I know the questions for the answers in which I'm searching? No. I recently took a trip to Virgina, in which I talked to an old youth minister about stuff and then let him talk to a friend of mine, and do I know why I did any of this really? Not really. Then I was asked the question "CJ, who do you love?" Ugh...

Need I go on?

All I know is that I plan to stay at MACU to earn my degrees, I'm opening up to a very select few, and I'm ready to get back from this break. Do I actually know more than that? Probably. Do I want to unveil all I know? No.

So once again, am I running straight for the unknown? Well... frankly, it's probably the biggest unknown to me, because, to put it bluntly, I am trying to trust God to lead me where he wants me. Other people can probably see where I'm going. Can I? I maybe could.